its just funny how everything just has to be about you.
maybe just for once.
you'd like to know that we dont give a rat's ass about you.

and there was once i'd actually call you my friend.
and to call someone my friend is something big.
if its anything i've learnt from all the camps i've been to.
friends are those you trust your life with.
and i know exactly who they are.
and i thank god for that.

come to think of it.
i dont want to talk about you anymore.
you're not worth me getting irritated over.


i wanted to put up the neoprints i took with SYAZ.
but i dont have a scanner to save my life.
so photos are out.
which makes me realise that this blog is so out of photos.
which is why i'm waiting for the ones at sentosa.

AMANDA!
WHEN AM I GOING TO GET IT?
OR WHEN IS ANY OF US GOING TO GET IT?


i'm in the midst of making a list soon.
and i do mean soon.

and hopefully i'll feel more organised after doing it.

• treasure everything that i have around me. FAMILY, FRIENDS and MY FAITH.
• give my best in everything that i do.
• go to school everyday.
• get my totally awesome GPA.
• stop wearing panties and start wearing boxers. (cause they are comfy)
• try not to get drunk when i turn 18.
• not to forget what i want to say halfway through my list.
• HOLD ON TIGHTER TO MY FAITH.
• save money.
• which means not spending so much.
• maybe its time to have a journey of self discovery.
• go to phillippines?
• to know what love is again.
• not to abandon my dance and my stories again.
• and i know i'll be famous! and marry orlando bloom!give as many hugs to the people i love as possible.
• not to let myself down and not to short change myself. i guess thats the most important thing.
• and to constantly remind myself that i will never be alone through the journey of infinite darkness.

i totally realised that i've done nothing to accomplish anything on my list that i've made before the new year.
how stupid can that be?

so i think i should add on to the list.

• make my scrapbook. (finally)
• SAVE MONEY.
• get to be close to my friends. (amanda, audrey, lexine, shabin, desmond. shermann.)
• lose my fats and get muscles.
• my stories!
• not to be in a relationship until i'm 21 (shabin made me promise him that)
• quit smoking. (almost there.)

i think thats about it.

so i'll leave for now.
until i wake up.



i miss you like mad.
i had an idea how to return you your book.
but i figured not to.
i've lost a friend.
cause now i hardly think of you.
but when i do.
emotions just take me away.



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